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| waiting to go in the ring with... |
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| this big guy! |
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| me & friends in the bull ring |
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| baby girl for her graduationnn |
Not too much has gone on the past
week, but God keeps being faithful with “Jesus Calling”. What a great
devotional! It really is one of those
things where every day has the perfect word. Today’s was really great because I
was being weighed down by the expectations of others here in Ecuador, but today’s
message read that we have ONE master and ONE man who wants us to be who we are
in Him and does not expect us to be who we aren’t. It was so perfect for me
today because I just have been feeling like I haven’t been involved in as much
of the culture as last year. Yes, I have to deal with there not being any water
during most of the day, and I work in the kitchen with my Ecuadorian host mom
sometimes, and I help hand wash dishes at home, but I’m talking more about
relationally. I’ve closed myself off to a lot of people here because, since
college, I’ve become more emotionally distant as a person. When I got rejected
for being outgoing, my “sociable” personality went down significantly to the
point where I feel uncomfortable being around a bunch of people that I don’t
know. This makes it hard to bond with people who come to my house here or
people who come to Santy’s house. There are always a MILLION people at the
house, and it bothers me. I’ve tried to open up more, but it’s become harder.
So it was quite refreshing to hear that message today that, although I can push
myself to be a better person, I can’t spend all my energy trying to please
people in being someone that I’m not. It’s more worth it to focus energy on
God, and that leads to our authenticity.
