So today is my last day in Ecuador,
and it’s bittersweet. Though I can’t wait to take a warm shower without
worrying about it becoming ice cold in .5 seconds or losing the water halfway
through, and though I can’t wait to eat some pop tarts and have the beach only
an hour away, I’m also going to seriously miss this country, these people, and
this life here. I always feel like I’m in between worlds here, and it sucks. At
times I’m blessed to have two homes, two families, and two languages to call my
own, but at the same time, it becomes such a burden when I have to choose
between them. I don’t like having to go back and forth to these houses. I don’t
like getting to have brothers and a sister for only a few short months. I don’t
like mixing up my English and my Spanish or having to choose whether to watch a
movie in one or the other. But honestly, this is my life. I have another family
and a boyfriend overseas, and this is what it’s like to have that. I just hope
that one day I’ll be able to balance it, but I’m pretty sure we’re going to end
up going back and forth for our entire lives, and at some point, I think I’ll
be okay with it. I’m at least thankful for it. Honestly, I probably wouldn’t
have it any other way…
